With regards of what I wrote earlier on a few days ago, about being lucky but not perfect. Many people tend to only see the good side of the story. Pretty much on the "grass is greener on the other side" statement.
You know what I've learn from reading the Paris Hilton book? Or why I read any of these books by celebrities? Its because helps me see that life on the "other luckier side", and to help me see that life is not that perfect either.
Many a times, I know I rattle on too much about the little little minute things in my life when most of it is in place anyway. You see, again, what you see is only the perfect side. The dark and horrible things that have happen to me is never shown or told. And this is always a reminder to myself whenever I find myself getting irritated over these things, that there is ALWAYS another side of the coin that I do not know about, and probably explains why certain people does things their way.
Again, what do I learn from the Paris Hilton book? That I'm in some ways luckier than her because I could go and get drunk and make a fool of myself without anyone giving a damn, and that she couldnt get out of the house without spending time dolling up else the world will critizise on her makeup free look.
In that book, I spotted one bad picture of her. Bad as her face is pale and red and blotchy and looks nothing like her. Now, I dont know why that picture made it into the book, but it does suddenly make me realized that RM90 (initially I quoted the book to be at RM109) is worth it.
I need to read books such as this to constantly remind myself how lucky I am but it doesnt mean that I should be arrogant in anyway.
But then again, people read blogs/books/articles about how horrible their lives are, not how sugary and flowery it is. Sugary and flowery people irritates me because they live in the world that is sweet and perfect and they whine everytime things doesnt go the perfect way.
But then of course, if the sugary and flowery people has experience horrible experience before, then it makes them just like everyone else :)
And the second lesson learnt from the book?
Is to "always tell everyone what they want to hear. Then do what you want."
And the countdown begins!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
31/07/2007
A good time indeed.
Happy Birthday Babe!
This is the second consecutive year that we're spending our anniversary in Port Dickson. It wasnt initially planned that way at all, but with the free apt and offdays, somehow things just came together.
It was a good trip, a relaxing trip, just the way I like it. We werent rushing to go anywhere. In fact managed to squeeze a 4 hour nap in between! Weather was wet, but cooling most of the time, which makes it even more bearable and a less irritable me! Dinner was fantastic with the right ambiance. Found a couple of hypermarts (our favourite pastime?) and even managed to have a cook out for breakfast beside the beach the next morning.
The view from our "breakfast hut"Though it was a short getaway, but definately worth it. Sometimes, it doesnt have to be anywhere far and expensive.
Lazy to go back to work tomorrow, definately.
On the another note, I've been wearing only flat slippers for the past 6 days, and now my calf hurts. 4-inch heels everyday no pain, i'd thought i give you a rest and now this is how you repay me???
Monday, July 30, 2007
30/07/2007
I am going to do something I've never done for a long time.
I am going on a holiday without my makeup bag.
Oh well, even though its only PD and an overnight stay.
But still, its STILL a holiday and a special occasion to that ;-)
But both of us will not be taking any camera with us, except for the camera phones, in which I believe the quality wouldnt be as sharp, hence, pictures taken (if any) of me wouldnt be as ghastly as it should be.
Afterall, you have to understand, cause before this, makeup free usually mean an eyebrow free me, which looks something like voldermort (even i thinks he looks better!).
So, this would be the first time I go on a holiday without makeup but looking as normal as I could.
Hence, putting all my faith into my good skin alone (and of course the very expensive fake eyebrows), I am finally going to experience what it feels like to go on a holiday without the hassle of makeup and taking pictures with a face with all features complete.
On another note, I know and am very grateful that I am lucky in many aspects in my life, but contrary to what many has come to believe, being lucky is far from being perfect...
Cause nobody's perfect.
So, stop judging me and start feeling grateful for youself!
Life is NOT fair, cause if it is, you're NOTHING!
I am going on a holiday without my makeup bag.
Oh well, even though its only PD and an overnight stay.
But still, its STILL a holiday and a special occasion to that ;-)
But both of us will not be taking any camera with us, except for the camera phones, in which I believe the quality wouldnt be as sharp, hence, pictures taken (if any) of me wouldnt be as ghastly as it should be.
Afterall, you have to understand, cause before this, makeup free usually mean an eyebrow free me, which looks something like voldermort (even i thinks he looks better!).
So, this would be the first time I go on a holiday without makeup but looking as normal as I could.
Hence, putting all my faith into my good skin alone (and of course the very expensive fake eyebrows), I am finally going to experience what it feels like to go on a holiday without the hassle of makeup and taking pictures with a face with all features complete.
On another note, I know and am very grateful that I am lucky in many aspects in my life, but contrary to what many has come to believe, being lucky is far from being perfect...
Cause nobody's perfect.
So, stop judging me and start feeling grateful for youself!
Life is NOT fair, cause if it is, you're NOTHING!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
29/07/2007
Muka 20 sen.
Lepas 2 hari, nampak masih sama. Tak kopek lagi... Tapi masa untuk makeup dah separuh! :P
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Valerie Tay (1981 - 2007)
(13 years ago)
I knew her during secondary school, and was in the same class with her during Form One. During that time, we werent best friends, but I guess we talked a bit. Yes, I admit, I wasnt close to her.
(13 years later)
Then came the sudden news of her death from a friend via msn one day at work. She was suffering from bipolar disorder and has chosen to end her life.
A month later, I found out that a couple of her friends are getting together to help raise funds to the Malaysia Mental Health Association by participating in a blogathon.
Then I also found out that one of her favourite song is Cyndi Lauper’s “Walk On By”. Now, I couldnt find her singing that song in youtube, but I found Seal's cover version of it instead...
Lyrics
Val, though we hardly spoke to each other thoughout the years in school, I thank God for the chance to get to know you. Though you may have felt alone, I can see that many of your friends has felt less lonely with your friendship. You have make your presence felt in our lives and you will be missed. Rest in peace,...
I knew her during secondary school, and was in the same class with her during Form One. During that time, we werent best friends, but I guess we talked a bit. Yes, I admit, I wasnt close to her.
(13 years later)
Then came the sudden news of her death from a friend via msn one day at work. She was suffering from bipolar disorder and has chosen to end her life.
A month later, I found out that a couple of her friends are getting together to help raise funds to the Malaysia Mental Health Association by participating in a blogathon.
Then I also found out that one of her favourite song is Cyndi Lauper’s “Walk On By”. Now, I couldnt find her singing that song in youtube, but I found Seal's cover version of it instead...
Lyrics
Val, though we hardly spoke to each other thoughout the years in school, I thank God for the chance to get to know you. Though you may have felt alone, I can see that many of your friends has felt less lonely with your friendship. You have make your presence felt in our lives and you will be missed. Rest in peace,...
28/07/2007
(Picture taken about 2 hours after procedure)How plainful is this? Have you tried taking a mechanical pencil and poking yourself in short quick strokes using the metal tip? Now, try imagining the metal tip as needles and imagine having like 10 or 20 of it lined up together and poking you...
Not too bad, tolerable most of the time. After a while it kinda gets numb, and only when they start poking on fleshy areas then you start grining your teeth.
Information overload? :P
Looked slightly off and one side is slightly thicker, but that's only if you studied the picture long enough. And she says that after a week only will be able to gauge the results better, and will have to return a month later for touch up wor... Which is funny cause I've heard others saying it should be a week's time.
Not too worried about the senget part for now, cause anything is definately better than drawing everyday...
And to turn this entry even more girly, apparently I've to keep the brows dry for at least two days. Meaning washing my face ala facial way. Please, no breakouts yea...
And I'm given a small amount of cream to apply on the brows for a week. And it will start to harden and flake soon enough wor. Now, already i feel a bit tight whenever I frown. You know how it feels when your wound hardens and the scabs kinda threaten to break apart?
Told you this will be bimbo-ish with too much information... hehe...
Overall, it wasnt as bad as I've expected. After the whole thing is done, I even went to walk around Midvalley for a short time while waiting for my mum to pick me up later. Btw, I did this in Ultimate Impression. It wasnt as dark and as horrible than I expected it to be, albeit a bit red (from the poking) and wet (reflection from the cream). Was quite relieved that I can still show up in public, but the not that confident enough to continue walking around and instead choose a little corner in McDonalds hidden from view to have lunch and catch up on reading.
But that doesnt stop me from buying this though...
Not too bad. Covered stuff like what to do and what not to do to boast your confidence, etc. But of course, I'm much more interested in juice details of her life and to be caught up with the book rather than to appreciate the literature side of it. Loads of pictures about her, not really good in terms of value, but hey, I wanted it!Total cost? Its supposed to be RM380 with free 2 touch up within a year (TOLD you this is girly entry!), but the girl conned me into the RM500 package with free 2 touch up, 3 body treatment and eye treatment. Ok, I was thinking more of letting my mum go for the treatments since its transferable and I wont be around much anyway. Initially its supposed to be 1 body treatment (RM100) and 1 facial (RM200), but I've very skeptical on facials other than those done in Dermalogica (habis, you think the above picture comes cheap ah??), so I bargained and she exchanged the facial for 2 more body treatment instead.
And book cost me RM109.
And that was actually the reason why I choose to stay in McD instead, cause I'm already broke and way out of my budget, why spend time walking around anymore???
Thursday, July 26, 2007
26/07/2007
Si liao lah... the August itch to spend is starting again...
Its has been a hectic July. Been putting in extra hours purely because I wanted to clear all the work since I wasnt in the office often mid month and a week long holiday right about now!
Kicked start the holidays with a night in a hotel in KL yesterday night. Wasted a day on training and am back home now. Supposed to go Fraiser Hill over the weekend, but cancelled last minute (sorry! but I'm sure you'll have a great time!) cause I thought I wanted to spend more in at home and to (perhaps) see a couple of people. Then, after the weekend, gonna spend a night at Port Dickson (curtesy of a lucky draw) and will be back work on 1st Aug.
Today though, I met an interesting person. He is a manager in some company and we were grouped together for a few activities for today's training. After the first few minutes, I was smiling to myself. You know why? Cause at the back of my mind, I was going, this is so NOT the person that I wanted to work with. He is obnoxious, controlling and couldnt seems to make up his mind. He dictates everything that we discuss and ignore everything that we say. Whatever we say is not good enough, and whatever he says is correct. The other team member is very soft spoken, and he is reduced to just writting down whatever the Mr Obnoxious says. Its not just facts, just simple BASIC sentence structure he will want to use his way, down to every choice of WORD. Yup, its that bad. And then, he gets so indecisive, that even though the sentence is of his choice, when it comes to transfering the information to the presentation slides, he STILL wants to change. That means, even the small minute 5% of our contribution also no more already.
I am just SO GLAD he is not my boss.
On the other hand, (finally) going to do my eyebrow embroidery tomorrow morning. Been looking forward to it as its been something that I've wanted to do. Hope it looks good. No, all I hoped for is for it to look balanced. Then, perhaps will go for some retail theraphy. Been wanting to spend sometime alone out shopping :P
Hopefully, I'll be able to recharge my batteries to go back work again...
Its has been a hectic July. Been putting in extra hours purely because I wanted to clear all the work since I wasnt in the office often mid month and a week long holiday right about now!
Kicked start the holidays with a night in a hotel in KL yesterday night. Wasted a day on training and am back home now. Supposed to go Fraiser Hill over the weekend, but cancelled last minute (sorry! but I'm sure you'll have a great time!) cause I thought I wanted to spend more in at home and to (perhaps) see a couple of people. Then, after the weekend, gonna spend a night at Port Dickson (curtesy of a lucky draw) and will be back work on 1st Aug.
Today though, I met an interesting person. He is a manager in some company and we were grouped together for a few activities for today's training. After the first few minutes, I was smiling to myself. You know why? Cause at the back of my mind, I was going, this is so NOT the person that I wanted to work with. He is obnoxious, controlling and couldnt seems to make up his mind. He dictates everything that we discuss and ignore everything that we say. Whatever we say is not good enough, and whatever he says is correct. The other team member is very soft spoken, and he is reduced to just writting down whatever the Mr Obnoxious says. Its not just facts, just simple BASIC sentence structure he will want to use his way, down to every choice of WORD. Yup, its that bad. And then, he gets so indecisive, that even though the sentence is of his choice, when it comes to transfering the information to the presentation slides, he STILL wants to change. That means, even the small minute 5% of our contribution also no more already.
I am just SO GLAD he is not my boss.
On the other hand, (finally) going to do my eyebrow embroidery tomorrow morning. Been looking forward to it as its been something that I've wanted to do. Hope it looks good. No, all I hoped for is for it to look balanced. Then, perhaps will go for some retail theraphy. Been wanting to spend sometime alone out shopping :P
Hopefully, I'll be able to recharge my batteries to go back work again...
Books
Trottled down to Borders two days ago. Spent about an hour running up and down the bookstore (this multi-storeyed concept is really NOT practical at all!) looking for books.
No, it wasnt the Harry Potter book. I've given up on that since book 5.
Instead, I was running around the books and finally settling for these...
No, it wasnt the Harry Potter book. I've given up on that since book 5.
Instead, I was running around the books and finally settling for these...
Took me a while to find the above three, cause they were all over the place. They dont have an autobiography section (unlike the previous store that I went to). Found Teri Hatcher's Burnt Toast under the Self-help section, laughed at myself when I found it cause I couldnt believe I was buying something from this section. Its less than an inch thick, and I thought, well this wont last me for weeks, and went around to the info counter/computer trying to remember celebrities names and trying to check if they've ever written any books.
Then I found Victoria's That Extra Half An Inch. I've come across this book when one of the magazines did a review on this. Something along the line of her trying to write about fashion and trying to suggest places to shop. Now, somehow or rather, you know that I've into gossips and lifes of celebrities. And before Janice Dickinson, there's actually Victoria Beckham's Learning to Fly. This was a few years back, and when I saw this book, it was kinda pricey at RM109. Was contemplating whether to buy, but after 15 minutes of running around but STILL holding this book, I gave up and thought, what the hell, if I spend so long thinking whether to buy this book, then I MUST want this book...
So, I thought, I must get another book to read, cause I know Burnt Toast wont last long and Victoria Beckham is just.. well, shopping. So, then it was Goldie Hawn's A Lotus Grows In the Mud and a couple others. The others were matured celebrities that I've heard of but not so familiar with their background (meaning no idea on their juicy lifestory hence no interest yet). And so I picked Goldie's one instead.
Mostly, I am looking to AUTObiography, instead of those written by others and not the celebrity itself. Well, if i want to read about a third party opinion, I could have just picked up any gossip magazines right? Well, what if its just a marketing gimmick and the celebrities didnt really write it themselves? Well, I'm really stupid and I am easily convinced, the moment i see the name of the author matching the picture, I am sold :)
Was trying to find Michael J Fox's Lucky Man and Janice Dickinson's Everything About Me Is Fake: And I'm Perfect!, but unfortunately the first is out of stock and the second, well, apparently they dont carry it.
Walau eh, these books dont come cheap ler... Oh well, all for the sake of reading right???
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Cover your backside.
Coming back to the dead cat's story, i noticed that there is a similarity with both the incidents.
The first time it happened, I noticed a drastic change in my working approach. The change was very sudden and just the matter of days.
Since young, Ive always have stage fright, and whenever I'm required to speak in public, my knees goes weak and my voice shakes. Especially when its a round-the-table discussion, I always plan ahead on what I'm going to say, and that also it has to be thought carefully. Often, when I'm finally done constructing the sentence in my mind, the topic would have long gone.
But after that incident, talking up front is suddenly no longer a problem. My knees no longer shake, and instead of wasting time thinking and putting together my thoughts, I find myself just speaking my mind and talking out loud. Suddenly, my tolerance level went down the drain, and I am quick to anger, and I find it hard to tolerate incompetency. Suddenly, I find myself talking and controlling meetings, heading presentations, showing temper and shouting, and not to mention, MC-ing a function without much thought, something I would never thought I could do.
Cause I still remember how badly my knee shake during my interview in a position with this place.
Now, just a few days ago, again, I sense a sudden and drastic change in my attitude again. I procastinate less (in terms of urgent things lah, others not THAT drastic yet), and find myself rushing others to get it done. For others, it would seems as if i'm overly concerned and cowardly, but after that incident, I suddenly find myself getting sick and tired of excuses. Yes means yes, no means no lah. And wasting time dwelling on issues seems unnecessary.
Sometimes, people forget and lost plot down the way. I find myself very protective, and I will go all out just to make sure I'm "protected", making sure my path is covered with valid reasons.
Cause I'm on my own.
And I hate to see history repeat itself.
Lesson #3 Cover your backside.
The first time it happened, I noticed a drastic change in my working approach. The change was very sudden and just the matter of days.
Since young, Ive always have stage fright, and whenever I'm required to speak in public, my knees goes weak and my voice shakes. Especially when its a round-the-table discussion, I always plan ahead on what I'm going to say, and that also it has to be thought carefully. Often, when I'm finally done constructing the sentence in my mind, the topic would have long gone.
But after that incident, talking up front is suddenly no longer a problem. My knees no longer shake, and instead of wasting time thinking and putting together my thoughts, I find myself just speaking my mind and talking out loud. Suddenly, my tolerance level went down the drain, and I am quick to anger, and I find it hard to tolerate incompetency. Suddenly, I find myself talking and controlling meetings, heading presentations, showing temper and shouting, and not to mention, MC-ing a function without much thought, something I would never thought I could do.
Cause I still remember how badly my knee shake during my interview in a position with this place.
Now, just a few days ago, again, I sense a sudden and drastic change in my attitude again. I procastinate less (in terms of urgent things lah, others not THAT drastic yet), and find myself rushing others to get it done. For others, it would seems as if i'm overly concerned and cowardly, but after that incident, I suddenly find myself getting sick and tired of excuses. Yes means yes, no means no lah. And wasting time dwelling on issues seems unnecessary.
Sometimes, people forget and lost plot down the way. I find myself very protective, and I will go all out just to make sure I'm "protected", making sure my path is covered with valid reasons.
Cause I'm on my own.
And I hate to see history repeat itself.
Lesson #3 Cover your backside.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Dead cat?
Do you know, that there is a fine line between “pai sheung toi” (placed on top of table) and “sek sei mau” (eat dead cat)?
I’ve been “placed on top of table” numerous times, but its just about keeping my cool and faking it through.
But to “eat dead cat” is a totally different matter altogether. It is about taking the blame for other people’s faults.
And today, I was served my second dead cat dish.
The first time I ate it, I carry the hatred with me till today.
This second dish will not be any different.
I’ve been “placed on top of table” numerous times, but its just about keeping my cool and faking it through.
But to “eat dead cat” is a totally different matter altogether. It is about taking the blame for other people’s faults.
And today, I was served my second dead cat dish.
The first time I ate it, I carry the hatred with me till today.
This second dish will not be any different.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Norah Jones (not!)
I have a love-hate relationship with Norah Jones.
I love the soothing, jazz feel of the music. Always feels like I'm in a warm and cozy room, sitting by the fireplace with a glass of white wine, listening to the music, looking out to a fantastic view of the city. Very easy and relaxing, just like a scene right out from the TV.
But I hate the moment I stopped listening. I hate to leave that cozy room, to face the harsh reality. There is no warm and cozy room, only my bright bedroom. There is not fireplace, only the hot weather. There is no wine, but only water, or beer&7Up. And there is no view, only staring into other people's apartments!
Aiks...
I love the soothing, jazz feel of the music. Always feels like I'm in a warm and cozy room, sitting by the fireplace with a glass of white wine, listening to the music, looking out to a fantastic view of the city. Very easy and relaxing, just like a scene right out from the TV.
But I hate the moment I stopped listening. I hate to leave that cozy room, to face the harsh reality. There is no warm and cozy room, only my bright bedroom. There is not fireplace, only the hot weather. There is no wine, but only water, or beer&7Up. And there is no view, only staring into other people's apartments!
Aiks...
09/07/2007
I WANT! I WANT! I WANT!
(tears streaming down with a screwed up face)
I DONT UNDERSTAND, HOW COME OTHERS CAN AND I CANT!!!
(Bawling loudly) WWWAAAAHHH!!!
ITS HURTS SO MUCH!!!
(wipe tears of face and blow nose)
YES, I'M JEALOUS! YES, I'M ENVIOUS! YES, I'M BITTER! BUT WHY!?! WHY!?!
(screws up face and starts bawling again) WWAAAHHH!!!
I WANT! I WANT! IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR!?!
(kick legs and roll around the floor)
I WANT IT NOW!!!
(resist any coaxing or pleading)
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
(push away and refuse anything)
I HATE THIS!
(stands up, wipes face and run away crying...)
(tears streaming down with a screwed up face)
I DONT UNDERSTAND, HOW COME OTHERS CAN AND I CANT!!!
(Bawling loudly) WWWAAAAHHH!!!
ITS HURTS SO MUCH!!!
(wipe tears of face and blow nose)
YES, I'M JEALOUS! YES, I'M ENVIOUS! YES, I'M BITTER! BUT WHY!?! WHY!?!
(screws up face and starts bawling again) WWAAAHHH!!!
I WANT! I WANT! IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR!?!
(kick legs and roll around the floor)
I WANT IT NOW!!!
(resist any coaxing or pleading)
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
(push away and refuse anything)
I HATE THIS!
(stands up, wipes face and run away crying...)
Sunday, July 08, 2007
08/07/2007
Great, I missed a day of my medication, and I spend the WHOLE SUNDAY sleeping and having weird dreams.
Right before I came down, I promised myself that I'll drag my sorry ass out to run errands and not to stay at home whole day.
That was BEFORE the heavy rain on Sunday morning and the cooling effect it has for the rest of the day.
Not sure whether its the medication, but my emotion is a wreak and I ended up sleeping most of the day off, waking up only to shower and eat. And I have weird dreams too.
Wont tell you what it is though, its scandalous enough.
Damn, I'm tired...
Right before I came down, I promised myself that I'll drag my sorry ass out to run errands and not to stay at home whole day.
That was BEFORE the heavy rain on Sunday morning and the cooling effect it has for the rest of the day.
Not sure whether its the medication, but my emotion is a wreak and I ended up sleeping most of the day off, waking up only to shower and eat. And I have weird dreams too.
Wont tell you what it is though, its scandalous enough.
Damn, I'm tired...
Saturday, July 07, 2007
08/07/2007
I just finished paying off my Nokia 7380 (12-months installments),
Was toying on the idea of changing phone, and I had a certain model in my mind.
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Then I saw this on Friendsters.
So I click on it and took the personality test to see which phone suits my personality...
Answered a few questions,...
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And voila!
Just the phone that I was thinking about! Hehehe...
Books
Last time, when I started on a book, I usually like to finish reading it at one go. Preferably undisturbed. And there were numerous occasions when I was so engrossed with it that I hardly noticed others around. And books were accessible last time, cause I usually rent them and I'll just exchanged it for some other books.
Back then, I also have a lot of time.
Now, its different with this one.
Never have I managed to continue reading a book for 5 consecutive nights (2-3 chapters each night) and still find myself looking forward to read it.
You see, the problem about fiction books is that it tends to have a beginning, a peak, and of course, an ending.
And then, you're left hanging.
The good thing about biography is that the story is real. Of course, there is a beginning, but each chapters brings an equally exciting story and it never ends.
I like the fact that it never ends. Well, of course the book does, but then life still continues.
And the fact that whatever "stories" that the books brings, is REAL, and not just fiction. The love is real, the pain is real, the story as it unfolds, IS REAL. Though of course, i'm sure a lot of dramatization is involved, but then, dont we always dramatize our own life? Yes, we read about abuse everyday, but to read about one's experience, no matter how much excitement we add to the story, an abuse is STILL an abuse. And the emotions that the reader felt when reading, is probably a superbly small percentage of what the author ACTUALLY felt. Isnt that amazing, to know that the book is what life is all about, and not just some fictional story that a person writes to manipulate's the reader.
One of the reasons I stopped reading for a while is that I find the books void of life. So what, at 26, there is NO happily ever after. Though one may feel tingly from the story when everything finally works out, it often left me thinking, what happen AFTER that? And then i realized, cheh, this doesnt exist at all!!!
I'm not good with horror books though. Usually I got lost in the plot and I ended up speed reading through it so that I could get to the ending.
But its different with autobiography. There is no ending. Each chapter represent a mark in the author's life, and in life, there is no ending, regardless whether its a good one. Life goes on.
And I find myself looking forward to spend an hour or so each night, reading up the book. And I know that I dont have to finish it up, cause there isnt an ending to it. Its the life experience that I find so intriguing. Life itself, how it has treated others, and how they tell their side of the story.
And I dont have to lose sleep over reading.
And I've never been in a state where I am STILL interested in the book after 5 days.
*I still havent managed to finished reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Despite all that hype and to think of the things I did to buy it.
I know what is next on my list after this book though. Teri Hatcher's "Burnt Toast and Other Philosophies of Life".
Then I found out that Janice has two more books out, "Everything About Me is Fake... And I'm Perfect" and "Check Please!: Dating, Mating, and Extricating".
Heard about Michael J Fox's Lucky Man, and I'm all excited, but I only have so much time and money!
Back then, I also have a lot of time.
Now, its different with this one.Never have I managed to continue reading a book for 5 consecutive nights (2-3 chapters each night) and still find myself looking forward to read it.
You see, the problem about fiction books is that it tends to have a beginning, a peak, and of course, an ending.
And then, you're left hanging.
The good thing about biography is that the story is real. Of course, there is a beginning, but each chapters brings an equally exciting story and it never ends.
I like the fact that it never ends. Well, of course the book does, but then life still continues.
And the fact that whatever "stories" that the books brings, is REAL, and not just fiction. The love is real, the pain is real, the story as it unfolds, IS REAL. Though of course, i'm sure a lot of dramatization is involved, but then, dont we always dramatize our own life? Yes, we read about abuse everyday, but to read about one's experience, no matter how much excitement we add to the story, an abuse is STILL an abuse. And the emotions that the reader felt when reading, is probably a superbly small percentage of what the author ACTUALLY felt. Isnt that amazing, to know that the book is what life is all about, and not just some fictional story that a person writes to manipulate's the reader.
One of the reasons I stopped reading for a while is that I find the books void of life. So what, at 26, there is NO happily ever after. Though one may feel tingly from the story when everything finally works out, it often left me thinking, what happen AFTER that? And then i realized, cheh, this doesnt exist at all!!!
I'm not good with horror books though. Usually I got lost in the plot and I ended up speed reading through it so that I could get to the ending.
But its different with autobiography. There is no ending. Each chapter represent a mark in the author's life, and in life, there is no ending, regardless whether its a good one. Life goes on.
And I find myself looking forward to spend an hour or so each night, reading up the book. And I know that I dont have to finish it up, cause there isnt an ending to it. Its the life experience that I find so intriguing. Life itself, how it has treated others, and how they tell their side of the story.
And I dont have to lose sleep over reading.
And I've never been in a state where I am STILL interested in the book after 5 days.
*I still havent managed to finished reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Despite all that hype and to think of the things I did to buy it.
I know what is next on my list after this book though. Teri Hatcher's "Burnt Toast and Other Philosophies of Life".
Then I found out that Janice has two more books out, "Everything About Me is Fake... And I'm Perfect" and "Check Please!: Dating, Mating, and Extricating".
Heard about Michael J Fox's Lucky Man, and I'm all excited, but I only have so much time and money!
Friday, July 06, 2007
06/07/2007
Could it be?
How could it be?
How could it be that I am afraid?
Afraid after all these years...
How could it be?
How could it be that I am afraid?
Afraid after all these years...
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
03/07/07
And so again, it is the end of my 4 days off.
Over the weekend, a bunch of us drove down to Melaka to attend a friend's wedding dinner.
It was all fun and good, except for the horrible hot weather.
If its cooler, I'm sure we would have explored the town more and would have gotten more good food.
And I would have enjoyed the satay celup experience more if not for the makeup, corset and the sweltering heat from the pot.
Really lah, NOW i teringin nak makan satay celup :P
Well, the trip that all of us has been talking about for weeks is now over.
What else is there to look forward to?
Well, end of this month there would be a Fraser Hill trip and perhaps also a PD trip.
Gosh, how to work lah, like this???
The heat is really getting into me. It something that I've never gotten used to. Really, is it the high maintenance side of me, or is everywhere generally getting hotter???
On another note, I bought Janice Dickinson's No Lifeguard On Duty. Hope its a good one.
Over the weekend, a bunch of us drove down to Melaka to attend a friend's wedding dinner.
It was all fun and good, except for the horrible hot weather.If its cooler, I'm sure we would have explored the town more and would have gotten more good food.
And I would have enjoyed the satay celup experience more if not for the makeup, corset and the sweltering heat from the pot.
Really lah, NOW i teringin nak makan satay celup :P
Well, the trip that all of us has been talking about for weeks is now over.
What else is there to look forward to?
Well, end of this month there would be a Fraser Hill trip and perhaps also a PD trip.
Gosh, how to work lah, like this???
The heat is really getting into me. It something that I've never gotten used to. Really, is it the high maintenance side of me, or is everywhere generally getting hotter???
On another note, I bought Janice Dickinson's No Lifeguard On Duty. Hope its a good one.
02/07/2007
"...3 weeks..."
"...4 weeks.."
Funny how they both had one thing in common.
Wander if this shows a trend?
No high hopes for this one though...
"...4 weeks.."
Funny how they both had one thing in common.
Wander if this shows a trend?
No high hopes for this one though...
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