And the countdown begins!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Five things about me.

Five things about me that sometimes I myself still don't believe...

1) Ballet dancer
Yea, long long time ago I was taking ballet lessons. Don’t get me wrong, but I hated those lessons. Not only were the classes inconvineatly on Saturdays AND Sundays (thus filling up my weekends and everything pretty much revolves around it), I also hated the lessons. I just don’t see the reason to learn and dance the same bloody thing whole year around just to dance the same thing on exams. To me, it was rigid and I didn’t see anything good out of it (I wasn’t considering a career in it thus it lagi doesn’t make sense to me…).

The last straw? Its when they decides to fail me in my Grade 6 exams. And the reason is? Oh no, not because I wasn’t not dancing good, but apparently its because of this stupid muscle on my knee (of ALL places) that I didn’t flex (and I here make clear that I didn’t know that I was supposed to flex as non of the teachers told me about it, heck, I wandered if they knew that something is wrong with me in the first place!)

So, yeap, I was already hating my leassons and with the result, I told my mum (she knew I didn’t like it anymore long time but still want me to go) that this is just the best reason for me to quit and not waste anymore money on this. And so, I packed my ballet shoes (the ones that have hard toes and hurts like hell and I don’t remember what its called), went to the school, gave them the shoes and told them, “I quit. I am donating these shoes.”

Sigh. Life improves since then. I gain weight the moment I stopped dancing. I presevered and this is what I get.

2) Music teacher
My first and longest part time job. I was still in college, I was learning organ and I was in Grade 6 (I think!). My music school opened another branch nearby and my teacher asked if I’ve be interested to teach. It all started when I substituted her classes one or twice and then I became a part time teacher myself. My first student is this cute guy who wants to learn keyboard. Damn cute wan! Then there was this old lady, a couple of teenagers and many kids. In particular, a lesson with this super adorable kid, where once I scolded him for being naughty and he packed his bag to leave!!! Panicked, I offered him stickers to calm him down. Hehe Teaching kids were easy, just loads of songs, music, clapping, singing, stickers and colour pencils.

I taught for a year. My highest income at one point of time hit RM1k, and I am only working a few hours each Sat and Sun. Imagine the money I could make if I go full time. Unfortunately, I stopped my classes and quit my lessons when I went over to Aust to continue studying. I never managed to continue my lessons when I returned.

And my organ in my house is collecting dust.

2) Dim Sum girl
My only part time job in Aust. I was a dim sum girl at a chinese restaurant in Chinatown. I worked a couple of hours about 2-3 days a week in the morning. Good experience, my only experience in F&B. We had fun! I couldn’t read the chinese words to diferentiate the different types of teas, so I couldn’t serve and take orders. I cleared tables and pushed the dim sum cart around lor.

Memorable incidents includes the constant curi-ing of food in the kitchen to eat, my ten-WHOLE-minute to clear a dirty 10-seater table and of course, the looks on the angmohs face when I introduce them to chicken feet! Hahaha

I didn’t work there long. Only for my 1st semester. After which I decided not to work anymore. And hence the allowance money also dropped. Hehehe Think on an average, I earned around $50 per week or so.

4) Croupier
So, on a more recent timing, I was trained to be a croupier when I was a Management Trainee. Its something that I had wanted to do as part time since I was in school but my parents (naturally) was against it. So, in a simpler sense, its like a dream come true for me lah. It was certainly a good experience, and although I didn’t really work full time on that position, but still, its god enough exposure for me.

I don’t think I could last long if I were to be in this position as a partimer in school. Favourite game to deal? Bacarrat. 3 rows of games and it will be my turn to break. But most interactive game? Pontoon lor… “Sir/Mdm, card/stay/double?” Least favourite game? Roulette, cause its too much use of brain to calculate payment and such an irritating task to sweep the chips and arrange them nicely just to sweep them down again the next minute.

And once, I collected RM70 and payout to customer RM120 worth of chips.

5) RM38,000,000.00
Right. RM38million cold hard cash right in front of me. Eish, RM1million cash in a bank branch safe? Nothing lah…

I still cannot believe it. Thirty eight million of cold hard ringgits right in front of me. All nicely counted, clipped and banded together in rows and rows across the tables. I could feel it, touch it and toss it around. Heck I even did the counting.

RM38 million. Cash. Chinese New Year Eve. When its done, I went out just in time to see the fireworks at 12am. And then I went back to room to sleep.

That was crazy.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Crack of dawn...

Yesterday night after the movie, I remembered...
Contary to what I believe, I actually like being awake in the morning. Especially the time from 5 in the morning right up until 7am.
I remembered back when I was in uni, how I used to stay awake at night and only go to sleep at the crack of dawn when it just about to get bright. There were also times when we hang out and stayed up all night and then have breakfast at Mcdonalds. Think there were also once where we had pancakes as well for breakfast. There were the occational dim sums as well, especially when I was working midnight.
I like being awake at the crack of dawn. I like it being somewhat bright but not as bright as when the sun is up. I enjoyed the peace and quiet. Though I don't enjoy waking up at that time, but I like staying up to enjoy it. I like the dark blue sky as it gets brighter. I like the smell and cool fresh air. I like watching people getting ready for the day, as they opened their shops/stalls, getting into the car, etc. I like how my skin feels (super dry from dehyration and missing a night's sleep), my eyes would be dryer still. Although I would be feeling completely messed up, I missed feeling that.
And the best part about it? When it gets too bright and when everyone is just waking up for the day, I get to go back to sleep to the sound of people getting ready and the chirping of the birds...

Friday, September 22, 2006

22/09/06

I feel like a hypocrite sometimes…

We talked about friends who applied for married quarters after they registered their marriage,
And here I am, wishing I could do the same.

We talked about friends who were very “supportive” of their bosses,
And here I am, where people only reply to my emails after they found out who I report to.

We talked about friends who were eating way too much that is dangerous to their health,
And here I am, eating fried mushrooms, fried chickens, fried pancake, fried noodles and ice-cream sitting on a pavement next to a drain for dinner!

We talked about friends who cannot spend time with us just because they want to be with their other half,
And here I am, spending the whole week after work with him and not any other friends.

Hmm… No, I don’t feel like a hypocrite sometimes. In fact, I am one! :P

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Porkchops, anyone?

So, Monday night I went to sleep eagerly anticipating the wonderful view I will see when I wake up in the morning. I was looking forward to the bright sun, blue sky and fantastic view from above.

But this is what I get…


Dull and grey view. What a damper…
Eish, boring betul…

Anyway, the conversation turns to holiday destinations and BALI was discussed.

Me: I’ve never been to BALI, but I think it would be similar to Phuket – lots of cheap sorveniers, beers, angmohs and local women.
Him: Yea, I suppose.
Me: When I was in Phuket, I felt so little as the attention was at the local women and also the transvetite shows..
Him: Yea, I suppose.
Me: I mean, everyone knows that the transvetite’s body is fake and the ladies (to make themselves feel better) would say, “Cheh, fake one what…” but still the guys would still be ogling at them.
Him: Yea, I suppose.
Me: Standing next to the local women and the transvetite makes me feel like a porkchop, you know…
Him: !!??
Me: Hm, okay, so I am not porkchop, but I feel like a bacon. Nice on its own, but compared to marinated beef ribs, lose liao…
Him: Yea, I supose.
Me: WHAT!!?? *Scream, pinch, yell and punch*

Hehe, yea, so I make the last bit up. But you’ll get the idea…

Sunday, September 17, 2006

24 MP3s.

This is what I have left of you…

1. Evanescence – My Immortal
2. Avril Lavigne – Don’t Tell Me
3. Christina Aguilera – The Voice Within
4. Evanescence – Bring Me To Life
5. Gwyneth Paltrow & Huey Lewis – Cruising Together
6. Jason Mraz – You & I
7. Kris Dayanti – Menghitung Hari
8. Lionel Richie - I don’t know much but I know I love you
9. Mariah Carey – My All
10. Mariah Carey – Hero
11. Mariah Carey – Butterfly
12. Moulin Rouge Soundtrack – Come What May
13. Simple Plan – Perfect
14. Sarah Mclachlan – In The Arms Of The Angel
15. Sheila on 7 – Berhenti Berharap
16. Silverchair – After All These Years
17. Ten Things I Hate About You Soundtrack – I Want You To Want Me
18. Vonda Shepard – Ally Mcbeal – I Only Want To Be With You
19. Daniel Powter – Bad Day

And 5 Sammi Cheng’s songs.

These are my favorites in your list. I copied them into my pen drive just days before you died on me.

Each and everyone of them remind me of different things. I get so easily absorbed into the songs and wanted so much to be back to the times when I used to listen to them. Almost wishing that the songs never end so that I could still hold on to those memories and times that I am transported back to. I remembered the feeling, I remembered the scenery, I remember the sounds, the lights…

But I tried not to listen to them too often. It drains too much energy away from me. The reality check is too confusing just to relive those moments. In fact, I carry the feeling with me for a while before I could let go. Vivid, they’d say.

A trip down the memory lane, so it seems…

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Hypermarts and freedom

I don’t know why, but it definitely has something to do with it…

We went to a hypermart after work yesterday. Initially, after a tensed day at work, we were supposed to have dinner together with friends that night. I wasn’t too keen and was looking forward to get away from the hill and away from it all. We then made plans to go pasar malam, but after thinking about the heat and crowd, I suggested the hypermart instead (aircon, huge space and shopping!).

And so, we had dinner at the restaurant at the hypermarket, and I still was thinking about work. Even right before we step into the hypermart, I am still troubled by it. But as soon as we went it, I quickly forgot about it all. In fact, after a while inside, I suddenly thought about it and wandered aloud, “hey, I forgot about work…”.

It was very therapeutic indeed. After paying for our purchases (we didn’t buy much), I felt relaxed, charged, and ready to face it all.

I don’t know why. Perhaps its because after nearly 2 years working here, I am beginning to feel sick of this place. Or perhaps it’s the fun when looking at things at the grocery store. Or the sense of peace where we can walk and stroll without bumping into a familiar face every 5th person we walk past by. Or it’s just the freedom and joy of being a paying customers that I can appreciated good service and complaint on bad service without feeling guilty because I am not paying for it.

Yea, I think it is. I think I enjoy being a paying customer without having a meal thinking as if I owe it to them for being able to eat at all! And hypermarts are a great place to go cause we both can enjoy browsing through the things together. We can walk around and enjoy the privacy that everyone else deserves without risking our fun being told by other people.

Sigh, the sense of freedom…

Monday, September 11, 2006

11/09/2006

I.NEED.TO.STOP.SHOPPING.

And there is only ONE way I know that will work.

I now pay close to RM7k a year for my insurance premium.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

05/09/2006

There's been some major restructuring going on in the organization for the past weeks.

There is nothing much that we can do about the changes. And being an Exec in the big organization, changes in the org only means we have different bosses. But our job functions remains the same. Its only when u are at a higher position, that is where the politics kicks in.

Oh well, I've accepted my position, and I will continue to do what I was told. I will let them do all the fighting and its time for me to "Sit back, relax and enjoy the show".

Pass the popcorn please...

Monday, September 04, 2006

04/09/2006

The previous post is a bit too dark for my liking… Time to talk about some happy things!!

I have been on a cleaning frenzy since the pipe burst in the bathroom. I have cleaned the toilet, scrubbed the bathroom, reorganized my wardrobe, wiped the cupboards, mopped the floor, and most importantly, cleared my room cause they are changing the linoleum in our room!!! We have been hoping to change it since the current one is old and makes the room looks dull. But we didn’t want to clear our stuff cause its too messy. Since the burst pipe incident, its an excuse for us to finally get it done. And so, now our room looks bright, clean, blue and empty!! Excused myself from work for about 2 hours after lunch to go back cause the ppl need the occupant to be in the room. And so now, I am just lepaking in the office for another hour, and then will go back for another (hopefully final) round of cleaning! Then can unload all my stuff back to their place… Gosh, this packing & unpacking makes me dread moving to the new hostel next year!!!

The Mega sale have ended, and my total purchases are 1 bikini, 2 baju kedahs, 2 pairs of shoes, 8 tops, 1 skirt, 1 bag, 2 Starbucks mooncake and a whole lot of lingeries!!! Total amount spent? I don’t dare to count, though I think I spend more than RM800 on lingeries.. :P Now, I am “paying” the price of the shopping spree and looking at my credit card bills. Oh well, I’ll figure something out.

Then hor, 2 months later will be another season of shopping for Christmas and CNY. Damn…