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Friday, June 29, 2007
Panic! At the Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Bear with me for a while, with all these videos. I've no laptop and no means to download/store my songs, and this is the only way I could (sort of) save a list of the songs I like :)
29/06/2007
I've successfully manage to keep my bills down to a "clearable" amount every month.
Very happy with it, and suddenly feel like spending it on books.
For some time now, I've had an interest in autobiography. Celebrities from the entertainment industry autobiographies especially.
And the last few books I've bought was those and since I've wanted to get my hands on some others.
Perhaps, with the manageble expenses now, I could kick start my reading habits again?
Very happy with it, and suddenly feel like spending it on books.
For some time now, I've had an interest in autobiography. Celebrities from the entertainment industry autobiographies especially.
And the last few books I've bought was those and since I've wanted to get my hands on some others.
Perhaps, with the manageble expenses now, I could kick start my reading habits again?
30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill
Wanted to watch "The Shining" because of this, but i'm scared shit.
Wanted to read the book instead(?)
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Money is not everything, but without money you're nothing!
When I was in primary school, I was given 20 cents as allowance everyday to spend. And everyday without fail, my mum will pack me two slices of bread (either with kaya or peanut butter) and put it in a clear plastic bag for me to take to school.
And everyday without fail, I'll throw it away. Because by the recess time, its soggy and I hate that. Because that, I've grown to hate bread.
But anyway, bread story aside, back to the allowance. So, everyday I'm given 20 cents to buy things to eat at school. And everyday I go to school, standing at the entrance, looking at all the food they were selling (my school canteen is fantastic, like a mini food court i tell you!), glanced at my 20 cent coin, and saw that what was standing between me and the food is the coin.
Lesson #1 Money very important.
So, i still remember, every Tuesday would be my favourite day, because that's when the canteen serves prawn mee, and my 20 cents will get me a small bowl (well that was years ago, and I AM getting old). Other than that, I couldnt afford anything else, because everything else cost more than 20 cents (see, I am not THAT old afterall).
So anyway, moving on, in Year 2 or Year 3, another distant cousin joined my school. And since I was older, I was told to jaga her.
Guess how much she got for allowance each day? RM2!
Yes, I shamelessly admit that at that time, each recess, I took her money to buy things for myself to eat. She also stupidly let me cause I'm older mah. But few days later, I got busted when she told her mum what happended.
Lesson #2 Never borrow money from anyone.
cont'...
And everyday without fail, I'll throw it away. Because by the recess time, its soggy and I hate that. Because that, I've grown to hate bread.
But anyway, bread story aside, back to the allowance. So, everyday I'm given 20 cents to buy things to eat at school. And everyday I go to school, standing at the entrance, looking at all the food they were selling (my school canteen is fantastic, like a mini food court i tell you!), glanced at my 20 cent coin, and saw that what was standing between me and the food is the coin.
Lesson #1 Money very important.
So, i still remember, every Tuesday would be my favourite day, because that's when the canteen serves prawn mee, and my 20 cents will get me a small bowl (well that was years ago, and I AM getting old). Other than that, I couldnt afford anything else, because everything else cost more than 20 cents (see, I am not THAT old afterall).
So anyway, moving on, in Year 2 or Year 3, another distant cousin joined my school. And since I was older, I was told to jaga her.
Guess how much she got for allowance each day? RM2!
Yes, I shamelessly admit that at that time, each recess, I took her money to buy things for myself to eat. She also stupidly let me cause I'm older mah. But few days later, I got busted when she told her mum what happended.
Lesson #2 Never borrow money from anyone.
cont'...
27/06/07
This time last year, I was busy shopping because of the bloody Mega Sale. Took me months before I could clear the bills.
Wander if I'll do it again this year.
:)
Speechless, really...
Wander if I'll do it again this year.
:)
Speechless, really...
Monday, June 25, 2007
25/07/2007
Given a short amount of time, I can do your job.
But given the same amount of time, you cannot do mine.
But given the same amount of time, you cannot do mine.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Where am I?
(You have to be here to appreciate this!)
Mr. P: Excuse me, where is Resorts World?
We: ...
Mr. P: Excuse me, where is Resorts World?
We: ...
Monday, June 11, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Pictures from my camera phone
Does this picture looks as fake as it can be?
At certain time of the month, whenever I catch a glimpse of this building, I smiled to myself :)
A quiet lobby.
The white background are the pleats from my curtains. Bugs are this big here, I kid you not.
Me.Skeletons in the closet coming out to play...
Recent news about a school friend who committed suicide due to depression shocked me. When I heard of the news, there are so many questions to ask and yet it is too late.
I guess, every now and then, every one of us will feel down and the monsters and skeletons of our life will come out to haunt us.
And it is the ability to acknowledge them and politely ask them to go back to the closets is what helps us continue to live.
For those who continued to entertain these monsters and skeletons, they will eventually get comfortable and will refuse to go back; hence, they will be haunted with their presence.
I don’t believe in sending them away. Sending them away will only create an opportunity in which one day they will come back and we will be caught in surprise, totally unprepared.
Despite having to hide them, I am more comfortable keeping them in a dark cold place away from everyone, but a place that I know exactly where they are. Yes, once in a while they will be naughty and decides to come out to stretch their legs, but if you are nice to them, they will go back into hiding.
And everyday I live a life, reminded by the fact that they are hiding up there, and live day-by day, grateful that today is not the day that they come out to play.
Even if one fine day, when they do finally get bored and decides to come out of their hiding place for everyone to see and never to hide again, I live my life grateful for what it has been, as I could only hide them for so long.
For my life could have been far worst.
Or perhaps, pessimistically thinking, the worst has yet to come.
I guess, every now and then, every one of us will feel down and the monsters and skeletons of our life will come out to haunt us.
And it is the ability to acknowledge them and politely ask them to go back to the closets is what helps us continue to live.
For those who continued to entertain these monsters and skeletons, they will eventually get comfortable and will refuse to go back; hence, they will be haunted with their presence.
I don’t believe in sending them away. Sending them away will only create an opportunity in which one day they will come back and we will be caught in surprise, totally unprepared.
Despite having to hide them, I am more comfortable keeping them in a dark cold place away from everyone, but a place that I know exactly where they are. Yes, once in a while they will be naughty and decides to come out to stretch their legs, but if you are nice to them, they will go back into hiding.
And everyday I live a life, reminded by the fact that they are hiding up there, and live day-by day, grateful that today is not the day that they come out to play.
Even if one fine day, when they do finally get bored and decides to come out of their hiding place for everyone to see and never to hide again, I live my life grateful for what it has been, as I could only hide them for so long.
For my life could have been far worst.
Or perhaps, pessimistically thinking, the worst has yet to come.
Blame game
The day that I blame it all on.
The day when I lie down alone on my bed, wandering what went wrong, I thought of that day.
The day when I cried myself to sleep on cold nights, wandering what happened, I thought of that day.
The day when I felt empty and lonely despite being surrounded by people, wandering what is it that I longed for, I thought of that day.
The day when I longed to be doing what others are doing, wandering when it’s my turn, I thought of that day.
The day when I feel my lowest, wandering if things could be different, I thought of that day.
Then I remembered everything else that happened after that day.
And I am ashamed of myself for feeling this way.
I seem to have a lot of anger inside me. The frustration on the way things are going, the resentment on why things are not happening, the despair on not knowing and the misery on what had happened.
And sometimes, the build up of all these feelings just blow up whenever the bottle is full and a button is pushed.
Of course, on days like these, everything else seems irrelevant.
But when I lie down and listen to a steady soft beat as I slowly fall asleep, I knew nothing was wrong.
The day when my tears were dried with kisses and soft soothing words calmed me, I knew nothing was wrong.
The day when I walked around amidst huge crowd of people and guided by a firm grip by the hand, I knew nothing was wrong.
The day when we sat down and talked about our future after a good meal, I knew nothing was wrong.
The day when I buried my face in a warm familiar hug, I knew nothing was wrong.
Despite driving myself crazy and letting anger take over me, I remind myself of them.
He, who visits his parents separately because they are divorced,
She, who is left alone because he is thousands of miles away,
He, who could not hug her because he could not move,
And she, who is now lifeless, and may she rest in peace.
Though at times when I feel most vunerable, I hope that my anger would help me survive and overcome any obstacles that may come in my way.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
070607
I am confused.
And knowing me, I’ll just take a mere second to decide and be done with it.
But not this time.
I want to take a step behind and to be able to see clearly the whole situation.
I didn’t want to make a decision I’ll regret. I’d tend to get too excited over these things and get caught up with the situation that wasting time choosing the inevitable seems unnecessary.
However, I am grateful of this opportunity. It shows me what I could be facings months down in time. The situation would be the same later, its just the matter of now or later.
Yes, the prospect and offer is great, though after some initial calculation, it will not be that much. But then again, I am not sure if this is the most I could get.
Money aside, the prospect is good, and I forsee a lot of work. So much so that I actually doubt if I could deliver. Insecurity clouds over me as I wander if I’m expected to deliver more than I could handle. I
Of course, the thought of returning home looks inviting. But for that, I’ll have to pay the price of being in a long distance relationship and will not be able to spend as much time as we do here. And yes, that is enough for me to reconsider. But it is for a short term. But half a year?
But all these things, its just a matter of time right? If its not now, it would be later, regardless of who is leaving first. And worst case scenario, what if I could never match this?
Which brings me into another concern. A very sensitive issue that I believe we both have not discussed. “Kong chin sheung kam cheng” (Talks about money will hurt relationships). How true is that saying. But at the bottom at my heart, I truly believe he will go far, and that in the end, all will be okay.
The inevitable is bound to happen. Unfortunately, life does not always happen the way we wanted it. Its just a matter of now or later. And I am grateful for this opportunity. I now have more time to weigh all aspects of the decision, instead of waiting for the very last minute.
I have wanted this to be just a test. To see what it feels like and how bad/well it could go. I certainly do not want to jump into decisions quickly. But after four hours, I am tempted to make it a reality instead of just an assessment.
But of course, the Director puts me off but the manager seems very nice. De ja vu, I tell you, cause it is the same stubbornness and old fashion that I see here. And change management is what taking place and I’ve been there all along. Do I want to spend time working with that level of stubbornness again? But of course, ultimately, the challenge lies with me in delivering what he wants and proving him wrong.
Small matter, really.
I’ve a friend, who told me “Don’t you worry about these things. Let it happen naturally, and things will fall in place. Look at me, when I got married, I didn’t thought about owning our own house, and look at me now, three kids and two cars!”
These words has comforted me so much, and I breathe a sigh of relieve and say a silent prayer to HIM to seek for his direction.
And knowing me, I’ll just take a mere second to decide and be done with it.
But not this time.
I want to take a step behind and to be able to see clearly the whole situation.
I didn’t want to make a decision I’ll regret. I’d tend to get too excited over these things and get caught up with the situation that wasting time choosing the inevitable seems unnecessary.
However, I am grateful of this opportunity. It shows me what I could be facings months down in time. The situation would be the same later, its just the matter of now or later.
Yes, the prospect and offer is great, though after some initial calculation, it will not be that much. But then again, I am not sure if this is the most I could get.
Money aside, the prospect is good, and I forsee a lot of work. So much so that I actually doubt if I could deliver. Insecurity clouds over me as I wander if I’m expected to deliver more than I could handle. I
Of course, the thought of returning home looks inviting. But for that, I’ll have to pay the price of being in a long distance relationship and will not be able to spend as much time as we do here. And yes, that is enough for me to reconsider. But it is for a short term. But half a year?
But all these things, its just a matter of time right? If its not now, it would be later, regardless of who is leaving first. And worst case scenario, what if I could never match this?
Which brings me into another concern. A very sensitive issue that I believe we both have not discussed. “Kong chin sheung kam cheng” (Talks about money will hurt relationships). How true is that saying. But at the bottom at my heart, I truly believe he will go far, and that in the end, all will be okay.
The inevitable is bound to happen. Unfortunately, life does not always happen the way we wanted it. Its just a matter of now or later. And I am grateful for this opportunity. I now have more time to weigh all aspects of the decision, instead of waiting for the very last minute.
I have wanted this to be just a test. To see what it feels like and how bad/well it could go. I certainly do not want to jump into decisions quickly. But after four hours, I am tempted to make it a reality instead of just an assessment.
But of course, the Director puts me off but the manager seems very nice. De ja vu, I tell you, cause it is the same stubbornness and old fashion that I see here. And change management is what taking place and I’ve been there all along. Do I want to spend time working with that level of stubbornness again? But of course, ultimately, the challenge lies with me in delivering what he wants and proving him wrong.
Small matter, really.
I’ve a friend, who told me “Don’t you worry about these things. Let it happen naturally, and things will fall in place. Look at me, when I got married, I didn’t thought about owning our own house, and look at me now, three kids and two cars!”
These words has comforted me so much, and I breathe a sigh of relieve and say a silent prayer to HIM to seek for his direction.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Fan switch
Mr. S: (called through the operator) Hello?
We: Reception, how can I help you?
Mr. S: How do I on the fan?
We: Well, you switch it on, sir.
Mr. S: There is no switch.
We: Yes, there is sir. Next to the light switch.
Mr. S: There is no switch.
We: Yes, there is sir. Its the round knob next to the light switch.
Mr. S: (silent) Ah, yes. There is a switch.
We: Alright, sir.
Mr. S: How do I on it?
We: You turn it clockwise, sir.
Mr. S: (silent) Okay.
We: Anything else, sir?
Mr. S: How do I off it?
We: You turn it the other way, sir.
Mr. S: Ah, ok. Thank you.
We: Reception, how can I help you?
Mr. S: How do I on the fan?
We: Well, you switch it on, sir.
Mr. S: There is no switch.
We: Yes, there is sir. Next to the light switch.
Mr. S: There is no switch.
We: Yes, there is sir. Its the round knob next to the light switch.
Mr. S: (silent) Ah, yes. There is a switch.
We: Alright, sir.
Mr. S: How do I on it?
We: You turn it clockwise, sir.
Mr. S: (silent) Okay.
We: Anything else, sir?
Mr. S: How do I off it?
We: You turn it the other way, sir.
Mr. S: Ah, ok. Thank you.
Car Park
In XYZ Hotel's lobby...
Mr. Y: Excuse me, but I cannot find my car.
We: What you mean sir?
Mr. Y: I cannot remember where I park my car.
We: Okay. Do you remember any signs or symbols or colours at the carpark? Is there any fruits or animal symbols?
Mr. Y: Err... (takes a moment to think) No, I dont think there is any symbols. But I know that when I come out of the carpark, I am at ABC Hotel's lobby.
We: ...
Mr. Y: Excuse me, but I cannot find my car.
We: What you mean sir?
Mr. Y: I cannot remember where I park my car.
We: Okay. Do you remember any signs or symbols or colours at the carpark? Is there any fruits or animal symbols?
Mr. Y: Err... (takes a moment to think) No, I dont think there is any symbols. But I know that when I come out of the carpark, I am at ABC Hotel's lobby.
We: ...
Roller Coaster
I'm creating a new section called "Working Life".
It documents actual conversations that took place while working here.
Of course, most contributions would be from Des, and these are many of my favourites, as told by him, followed by many laughs afterwards.
Enjoy!
Mr. X: Hello, excuse me.
We: Yes sir, how can I help you?
Mr. X: What is a roller coaster?
We: ? (Confused look)
Mr. X: (points to the brochure) Roller Coaster. What is it?
We: (cracking his brain trying to find the first answer that comes to mind and voila!) Fast train, sir!
Mr. X: Ah, I know fast train!
We: (smiled, kepala kembang for a genius answer)
Mr. X: Where it take me?
We: ...
I dont know whether writting it down makes it less hilarious.
Anyway, if this amuse you, let me know!
It documents actual conversations that took place while working here.
Of course, most contributions would be from Des, and these are many of my favourites, as told by him, followed by many laughs afterwards.
Enjoy!
Mr. X: Hello, excuse me.
We: Yes sir, how can I help you?
Mr. X: What is a roller coaster?
We: ? (Confused look)
Mr. X: (points to the brochure) Roller Coaster. What is it?
We: (cracking his brain trying to find the first answer that comes to mind and voila!) Fast train, sir!
Mr. X: Ah, I know fast train!
We: (smiled, kepala kembang for a genius answer)
Mr. X: Where it take me?
We: ...
I dont know whether writting it down makes it less hilarious.
Anyway, if this amuse you, let me know!
Saturday, June 02, 2007
02/06/2007
If I want to capture the moments of my life, I need a good slim camera.
If I want to document the thoughts of my life, I need a good light laptop.
If I want to display the essence of my life, I need someone to die.
The first one would cost me about RM2k.
The second would cost me another RM7k.
The third, its tricky.
Funny how my greatest idea would involve someone's death.
Talk about being an exhibitionist.
Otherwise, life is alright now. But then again, after jinx-ing it back in March, I should have known better.
If I want to document the thoughts of my life, I need a good light laptop.
If I want to display the essence of my life, I need someone to die.
The first one would cost me about RM2k.
The second would cost me another RM7k.
The third, its tricky.
Funny how my greatest idea would involve someone's death.
Talk about being an exhibitionist.
Otherwise, life is alright now. But then again, after jinx-ing it back in March, I should have known better.
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