Ms Lo

After six years of knowing you,
Five agonizing days,
Four hours of driving,
Three shops,
Two private hospital,
One doctor,...

I never know I could be so happy to see you.

MBA?

Suddenly thought about going back to study.

Suddenly thought about going back to library to study, oddly enough, something that I hardly do. Library is usually the place I go when I need to find books to reference for my assignments. I hardly study in library, and efforts had to be made to go library. Its always too quiet for me, though sometimes it is nice to hang around that place and just start reading randomly.

I missed going to classess too. Wait, I miss going to lectures, not tutorials, cause tutorials is where the work is. Lectures is to sit back, relax and let the fella in front talk. Half of the time, my mind will wander and at times, I'll just fall back asleep. Lectures is about writing what the fella in fronts talked and drawing colourful lines on the notes. And when class is over, I'll just grab back my books and head back.

I missed having just assignments to do. Life back then was just about reading up, finishing assignments, passing up tutorial work and exams. Everything that I've learn during that semester, is just stored temporary in my brain, after which will be deleted after I pass that subjects. Once in a while, bits and pieces of information is stuck and that's how I remember parts about risk, supply & demands, but that is all.

I was never the over achiever. Nor was I the one with perfect attendance. All I can say is, I scrap through my classes without failing ever. But then again, considering that I sometimes only take one or two subjects per semester, I cannot afford to fail. I have no reason to. I'm doing subjects like a part time student. Two bloody subjects on two bloody days in a week. I still remember thinking that others have two days (weekends) to rest, and I have two bloody days to suffer before enjoying a 5-day break everyweek. Hey, I admit, I am not as brilliant as my friends. No point taking 4-5 subjects and failing 2-3 ever semester right? I know my limits.

Also, I am never one who is busy with activities. In fact, thinking back, I dont think I ever had any "extra curricullar" activities when i'm in college and uni. Zero. Pretty tidak-apa. Not even joining any Malaysian Association acitivites when I'm in Aust. The only ever "active' thing I do is to Drama 101 and taking up belly-dancing classes (in which is in the evenings and yet I still managed to skip classes because havent wake up!)

Yeap, I was that free and ignorant. Life was nice back then. And I pretty much laze around as much as I can. Cause I know thing will change when I starts working.

And hell, it did.

And now, with life as a student way back behind me, its now time for office politics. Almost as if the naive feeling is lost.

But then again, once in a while, I'll look at my friends and wander what life could be if I were to continue studying? Almost as if I am wishing for a body double and I feel I cannot leave my job, but yet, still want to study.

But why do I want to continue studying again? When the rate of interest never interest me in the first place (I major in Finance). They could never teach you about Covering your Backside 101, or Different ways to serve dead cat, and even Office Politics survival skills. In fact, I think the best way to teach us survival skills during college is to announce the change of exam questions half and hour before times up. Now, that is better.

Yeap, those are the things that keeps me going now. And I remembered thinking, life in college now will be boring, especially when my friends is now all working, and those people still in college wont understand working life. Generation gap, perhaps?

Gosh, I am old.

16/03/2007

So it is true…

It is true that when you are happy, everything just falls into place.

Even when there are crisis, you will be able to handle it calmly.

When there are changes, you will be able to take it with stride.

And take it all with a smile, and almost a chuckle.

I've been feeling like that since two weeks ago. Everything is just perfect, happy and smooth.

And I know why. *blush*

And being the pessimist that I am, I wander if things is gonna turn for the worst soon enough?

10/03/2007

I’ve been busy.

And it has been awhile since I’m this busy.

Just a quick update to say that I finally understand what it means when they say that women are generally “jin”.

For a few days, I’ve been trying to figure out the english-equavalent to the word “jin”.

Evil? Too mind.
Wicked? Not enough.
Bitch? Maybe…

Women want what they don’t have.
Yet, when they got it, they reject it.

Life is good… :)

3/03/2007

Mula-mula semua pun tak layan I.

Sekarang, semua punya cakap I’m under them.

Wah, you win lor. All push responsibility to me.

I ask you all to help me, say duwan, not your full responsibility.

I do things slow slow or fast fast, nobody cared.

Now, everyone also say I reporting to them. Everyone also say they want me to do things their way.

No conference no need to look for me lah.

When conference only come look for me say want this, want that.

Ask how come I never do this, never do that.

Harlow, if you know I’m suppose to do this for you, do that for you, how come never rush me for it?

Better still, never tell me I’m suppose to do this, do that, now you want to say its my fault?

All also think I only do their own things only.

You win lor!!!

One big fat lie.

I'm now on thin ice now. One wrong move, and it will backfire on me. Too proud too soon will not get you anywhere, you know?

Never believe what the boss promise you. Until it is in black and white. Don't say I don't warn you.

Cause today, I was promised another set of things again.

I almost want to laugh at the uncertainties of things and the regularities of these empty promises.

But then again, I shouldnt complaint.

We'll see if he can redeem himself one final time and proof me wrong.

Lay low.