I must be crazy thinking I can close 512 for long :)
Anyway, I was getting a bit paranoid over some stuff that I wrote a little while ago and decide to shut it off for a while to let people forget about it. Dont worry, you probably wont notice it anyway but i just felt uncomfortable.
Anyway, its now the end of 2008. I've loads of idea but not right now I guess.
One way or another, I've always felt that I've seen the very best of fireworks display. I mean, i know there were some fantastic pictures that has been taken, and I seems to appreciate the pictures more than being on site.
I remember there is once that I saw fireworks without Des. And it feels different. Almost indifferent. After that, I lost interest in watching fireworks if he is not there with me.
Yea, I know. I have no life.
But then again, I'm sure with the same amount of people who shake their head saying I put this to myself, there would be just the same amount of people who understands what I'm saying.
All I wanna say...
Lets just say that I would have prefer Des to be with me. But I had a wonderful Christmas, and that is all I can ask for.
And the countdown begins!
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Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
28/10/08
I'm in lala land right now. In my own little world, driving myself crazy with thoughts of the recession, weakening pound and losing job. Not good timing to kacau me right now. Obviously, as always, things are not as bad as I reported, but I'm the queen of drama right???
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
27/10/08
I was just reading through some of the old post way back earlier this year and last year and I cried my eyes out.
I'm so glad that 512 managed to capture all these moments. But I do noticed that there were hardly any 'happy' post.
Is it because I was hardly happy? I am aware that 512 captures a significant amount of stressful times in my life. But that is probably because I write better when I'm angry.
Hence, if you're reading this, please dont mistaken that I'm this angry and horrible sad woman. (Well, I probably am some of the times). Its just that most of the happier times I'm either spending it away from the laptop or captured in PITM.
:)
Everything is fine for now. But expect horrible post in the future, as I will be losing my temp job in November and I will drive myself (and Des) up the wall again with my antics of not able to find jobs. I suspect I will be in a 'suitable' mood fuel with enough emotion to write about the updates by then.
Watch out for this space! Take care everyone!
I'm so glad that 512 managed to capture all these moments. But I do noticed that there were hardly any 'happy' post.
Is it because I was hardly happy? I am aware that 512 captures a significant amount of stressful times in my life. But that is probably because I write better when I'm angry.
Hence, if you're reading this, please dont mistaken that I'm this angry and horrible sad woman. (Well, I probably am some of the times). Its just that most of the happier times I'm either spending it away from the laptop or captured in PITM.
:)
Everything is fine for now. But expect horrible post in the future, as I will be losing my temp job in November and I will drive myself (and Des) up the wall again with my antics of not able to find jobs. I suspect I will be in a 'suitable' mood fuel with enough emotion to write about the updates by then.
Watch out for this space! Take care everyone!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
10/10/08
You know what, I suddenly have flashbacks on life up the hill.
The multi storey escalators. The indoor theme park. The crowded lobby. The conference center. The outdoor theme park. The brightly lit walk way.
How the hell did we managed to spend three years there???
The multi storey escalators. The indoor theme park. The crowded lobby. The conference center. The outdoor theme park. The brightly lit walk way.
How the hell did we managed to spend three years there???
Thursday, October 02, 2008
01/10/08
I had in my mind this short straight-to-the-point post about my difficulty in sleeping, which slowly manifest itself into a long full blown bottomline-the-real-reason anger that took me quite sometime to settle down before drifting off the sleep.
I'd very much like to blame the cold water but I suspect the medication could have something to do with it.
I'm in my indecisive mood again, for I cannot even plan our trip in Oct anymore. 40 pounds for 6 mile away or 50 pounds for 3 miles away? Bus or train? 8am or 3pm? Blackpool first or Manchester first? North or South? Sun or Monday? Tuesday maybe?
I forsee another nervous breakdown in days to come.
I'd very much like to blame the cold water but I suspect the medication could have something to do with it.
I'm in my indecisive mood again, for I cannot even plan our trip in Oct anymore. 40 pounds for 6 mile away or 50 pounds for 3 miles away? Bus or train? 8am or 3pm? Blackpool first or Manchester first? North or South? Sun or Monday? Tuesday maybe?
I forsee another nervous breakdown in days to come.
Monday, September 29, 2008
28/09/08
Read the article below (extracted straight from here), and tell me what you think...
Devout muslim sues Tesco for religious discrimination after he was made to carry crates of alcohol
A muslim is suing Tesco for religious discrimination after having to carry crates of alcohol as part of his job.
Forklift truck driver Mohammed Ahmed, 32, worked in one of the supermarket giant's warehouses for eight months before quitting 'in protest', an employment tribunal heard.
He claims he was forced to leave because handling beer, spirits and wine is against his strict Islamic beliefs and that he was victimised when he asked the company to give him another role.
Mr Ahmed, who was raised in Saudi Arabia, told the tribunal he had no idea his job entailed handling alcohol when he started work at the distribution depot in Lichfield, Staffordshire, last September.
When he realised it did, he asked to be found different work but alleges that one of his supervisors told him: 'You do the job or go home.'
Mr Ahmed also claimed his line manager was 'aggressive' towards him and another supervisor angrily told him: 'Do not take the p***.'
The situation allegedly worsened in November and December when extra alcohol arrived at the warehouse in readiness of Christmas, the tribunal in Birmingham heard.
Mr Ahmed claimed he eventually lodged an official grievance with the company in February but was 'victimised and harassed' as a result.
Asked why he took so long to raise a grievance in the first place, he said: 'Many meetings were being held in the meantime to discuss the situation.'
The tribunal heard that since the case emerged Tesco has ensured its induction process makes clear that handling alcohol is part of the job.
But Laura Canham, the company's solicitor, said it was still unrealistic for Mr Ahmed to say he had no idea what his duties would be.
Mr Ahmed claimed he had never visited a Tesco store and was not aware the company sold alcohol.
But he admitted having shopped in other supermarkets - including Sainsbury's, Lidl and ASDA - and noticing alcohol was on sale there.
Miss Canham said: 'He was advised at the outset what the job would entail. At no stage did he raise the fact he could not handle alcohol.'
She told the hearing managers did all they could to help Mr Ahmed, adding: 'They went to see if there were any other roles available for him.
'He applied for a maintenance job, but he was unsuccessful. All other roles, in some form or other, also came into contact with alcohol.'
The tribunal was told Mr Ahmed also gave out 'mixed messages', at one stage suggesting he was allowed to handle Budweiser beer.
Miss Canham denied the company discriminated against him and said: 'It would be reasonable to expect him to be aware of what Tesco did.'
Mr Ahmed, of Derby, who is suing the firm for racial discrimination, victimisation and harassment, is set to learn the outcome of the case later this week.
He said: 'I was asking for my rights. I am not saying I am a perfect person, but there was a conflict with my beliefs.
'It is in our religion that we are not allowed to handle alcohol. In the UK there are equal opportunities that should protect me and my beliefs.'
Saudi Arabia's enforcement of strict Sharia law regarding alcohol is among the harshest in the world.
Sentences include several months' imprisonment for simply drinking beer, and it is not unknown for offenders to be given lashes as well.
A spokesman for Tesco, whose £63 million Lichfield depot employs around 1,000 people, said: 'Cases like this are very rare.
'Managers are trained to be culturally sensitive and have an "open-door policy" to staff for issues like this, as everyone is welcome to work at Tesco.'
I read and read it again three times just to make sure I didnt not misunderstood any part of the article.
I dont know whether to laugh or to cry...
Devout muslim sues Tesco for religious discrimination after he was made to carry crates of alcohol
A muslim is suing Tesco for religious discrimination after having to carry crates of alcohol as part of his job.
Forklift truck driver Mohammed Ahmed, 32, worked in one of the supermarket giant's warehouses for eight months before quitting 'in protest', an employment tribunal heard.
He claims he was forced to leave because handling beer, spirits and wine is against his strict Islamic beliefs and that he was victimised when he asked the company to give him another role.
Mr Ahmed, who was raised in Saudi Arabia, told the tribunal he had no idea his job entailed handling alcohol when he started work at the distribution depot in Lichfield, Staffordshire, last September.
When he realised it did, he asked to be found different work but alleges that one of his supervisors told him: 'You do the job or go home.'
Mr Ahmed also claimed his line manager was 'aggressive' towards him and another supervisor angrily told him: 'Do not take the p***.'
The situation allegedly worsened in November and December when extra alcohol arrived at the warehouse in readiness of Christmas, the tribunal in Birmingham heard.
Mr Ahmed claimed he eventually lodged an official grievance with the company in February but was 'victimised and harassed' as a result.
Asked why he took so long to raise a grievance in the first place, he said: 'Many meetings were being held in the meantime to discuss the situation.'
The tribunal heard that since the case emerged Tesco has ensured its induction process makes clear that handling alcohol is part of the job.
But Laura Canham, the company's solicitor, said it was still unrealistic for Mr Ahmed to say he had no idea what his duties would be.
Mr Ahmed claimed he had never visited a Tesco store and was not aware the company sold alcohol.
But he admitted having shopped in other supermarkets - including Sainsbury's, Lidl and ASDA - and noticing alcohol was on sale there.
Miss Canham said: 'He was advised at the outset what the job would entail. At no stage did he raise the fact he could not handle alcohol.'
She told the hearing managers did all they could to help Mr Ahmed, adding: 'They went to see if there were any other roles available for him.
'He applied for a maintenance job, but he was unsuccessful. All other roles, in some form or other, also came into contact with alcohol.'
The tribunal was told Mr Ahmed also gave out 'mixed messages', at one stage suggesting he was allowed to handle Budweiser beer.
Miss Canham denied the company discriminated against him and said: 'It would be reasonable to expect him to be aware of what Tesco did.'
Mr Ahmed, of Derby, who is suing the firm for racial discrimination, victimisation and harassment, is set to learn the outcome of the case later this week.
He said: 'I was asking for my rights. I am not saying I am a perfect person, but there was a conflict with my beliefs.
'It is in our religion that we are not allowed to handle alcohol. In the UK there are equal opportunities that should protect me and my beliefs.'
Saudi Arabia's enforcement of strict Sharia law regarding alcohol is among the harshest in the world.
Sentences include several months' imprisonment for simply drinking beer, and it is not unknown for offenders to be given lashes as well.
A spokesman for Tesco, whose £63 million Lichfield depot employs around 1,000 people, said: 'Cases like this are very rare.
'Managers are trained to be culturally sensitive and have an "open-door policy" to staff for issues like this, as everyone is welcome to work at Tesco.'
I read and read it again three times just to make sure I didnt not misunderstood any part of the article.
I dont know whether to laugh or to cry...
Friday, September 12, 2008
11/9/2008
I wanted to say 'I Told You So', but I could go on and on.
In fact, I could even say 'This is exactly what I predicted', but no point crying over spilled water.
What is the point? Lets just concentrate on cleaning up. Damage control they say.
I've never agreed with the arrangements, but I did. And so, its clean up time.
Learn from mistakes you'd say?
Not a good advice when you're surrounded with many similar glasses filled with water to the brim, propped up high on a piece of old wood. There really isnt much you can do, except to pray that it doesnt tip over and spill the water, just like the first glass.
It would cost a bomb to replace the wood. Especially when you will not OWN it.
What can we do? Prepare for the worst. Get as many newspaper as we can and put it at the base of the wood. Hence, when the water spill, it will be absorbed by the papers.
Towels you say? Nope, cause we can only afford newspaper for now, and it will be a one off cost. We will not be able to afford towels, which in this case, would be better cause it can be dried out and reuse again. Sadly, we cannot afford the towels.
I'm not too worried for now. It is only ONE glass of water. But when this goes on a regular basis, it will really hurt us.
To make matter worst, we're walking on eggshells. See how difficult it is? We've already got the eggshells to worry about, now we cant even use the wood to balance ourselves, in fact we're to tread around it carefully.
Double whammy you'll say?
Life is like that lor. What else can you say?
In fact, I could even say 'This is exactly what I predicted', but no point crying over spilled water.
What is the point? Lets just concentrate on cleaning up. Damage control they say.
I've never agreed with the arrangements, but I did. And so, its clean up time.
Learn from mistakes you'd say?
Not a good advice when you're surrounded with many similar glasses filled with water to the brim, propped up high on a piece of old wood. There really isnt much you can do, except to pray that it doesnt tip over and spill the water, just like the first glass.
It would cost a bomb to replace the wood. Especially when you will not OWN it.
What can we do? Prepare for the worst. Get as many newspaper as we can and put it at the base of the wood. Hence, when the water spill, it will be absorbed by the papers.
Towels you say? Nope, cause we can only afford newspaper for now, and it will be a one off cost. We will not be able to afford towels, which in this case, would be better cause it can be dried out and reuse again. Sadly, we cannot afford the towels.
I'm not too worried for now. It is only ONE glass of water. But when this goes on a regular basis, it will really hurt us.
To make matter worst, we're walking on eggshells. See how difficult it is? We've already got the eggshells to worry about, now we cant even use the wood to balance ourselves, in fact we're to tread around it carefully.
Double whammy you'll say?
Life is like that lor. What else can you say?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Internet on the go...
I absolutely love this internet on the go! How pathetic right, i could have update this using my laptop but no, i'd rather update using my mobile and typing away using the dictionary function. Not too bad eh, considering i haven't been using a proper keypad to type messages for two year already! I hope i got the right package and all these internet is free me charge! Otherwise, I'll be dead from the charges! Enough for now. Will call up customer service to check. Enough for now, will update more soon. Good night!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Thursday, May 08, 2008
07/05/08
What shall I say?
Its like I wanted something really badly and yet I dread what comes with it.
Anyway, for all its worth, more good comes out of it. I am certain.
I forgot, that's all.
I just need to remember.
I'll be alright.
:)
Its like I wanted something really badly and yet I dread what comes with it.
Anyway, for all its worth, more good comes out of it. I am certain.
I forgot, that's all.
I just need to remember.
I'll be alright.
:)
Thursday, April 03, 2008
03/04/08
We have broadband in our place now!
However, I wont have much time to use as as I'm due to work tomorrow onwards!
I have no idea what the work is about. So I guess I'll just have to cross my fingers and hope for the best.
Perhaps, things will be alright or else I'll be crying on my way home. Again. :)
Monday, March 31, 2008
31/03/08
I know I have been neglecting this place. There are so many thoughts that I wanted to put up but with the lack of internet has prevented me to do so.
We've arranged for internet in our place so hopefully things would be more convineant soon.
I miss this place. Dont worry, I wont kill you off I promise!
We've arranged for internet in our place so hopefully things would be more convineant soon.
I miss this place. Dont worry, I wont kill you off I promise!
Saturday, February 23, 2008
28/02/08
:) I have put up my first post in my picture blog! Go http://www.picturesinthemaking.blogspot.com/ and check it out!
Anyway, I seems to have problems with Blogger.
First, i cant seems to be able to save and the retrieve the saved post to edit. I am not able to retrieve any saved changes whenever I wanted to edit a post. It always goes back to the first saved draft, regardless of how many times I've updated it.
Second, the date is all wrong. Imagine my first post about 26th Feb is posted on the 23rd Feb! Makes it look so ridiculous, but with reference to the first problem, it took me too long and too many tries to change it again.
Third, I just realized, Blogger isnt the most friendliest place to upload pictures. Apparently, I can only upload 5 each times. Die, how am I gonna do a pictorial blog if it isnt easy in the first place???
We'll see how long I can manage posting in two places. I still have problems deciding which goes where.
Alright, I'm tired. There are many things in my mind and life right now. But I'm sure I'll find time to post it up soon enough...
Anyway, I seems to have problems with Blogger.
First, i cant seems to be able to save and the retrieve the saved post to edit. I am not able to retrieve any saved changes whenever I wanted to edit a post. It always goes back to the first saved draft, regardless of how many times I've updated it.
Second, the date is all wrong. Imagine my first post about 26th Feb is posted on the 23rd Feb! Makes it look so ridiculous, but with reference to the first problem, it took me too long and too many tries to change it again.
Third, I just realized, Blogger isnt the most friendliest place to upload pictures. Apparently, I can only upload 5 each times. Die, how am I gonna do a pictorial blog if it isnt easy in the first place???
We'll see how long I can manage posting in two places. I still have problems deciding which goes where.
Alright, I'm tired. There are many things in my mind and life right now. But I'm sure I'll find time to post it up soon enough...
25/02/08
I cannot lah. No matter how much I try to forget, it still come back haunting me. Past week has been absolutely horrible.
Its like a healing wound that gets cut up everytime it starts the healing process you know. You know the dried scab on a wound? Its like everytime somebody ask me about it, I dig away the scab and its an open wound again.
Honestly, I've tried very very hard to avoid talking about it for as long as I could. Why? Its so to give time for the would to perhaps heal a little bit more so that the next time around someone ask me about it, when I dig into the wound, the wound is not as deep and it wont hurt so much anymore.
I dont know why. One minute I'm absolutely convinced that I am over it, the next moment when the topic is bought up, I could feel the anger brewing inside me again.
I know Des feels absolutely horrible about this, but trust me babe, I'm really doing the very best that I can. I'm trying very hard to put this behind me. Somehow or rather, it still refuses to leave me. It must be something deeper than this...
This issue has disturb me so much until I couldnt properly sleep. Heck, I was so caught up in it that I suddenly only realized that today is the last day that I will be a legally single. It is so bad until I didnt even realized this and I guess the pressure spilled over to the registration issues.
I.Hate.This.
Can you believe that I cannot even enjoy the fact that I'm getting married soon.
I guess nobody really knows just how much the original date means to me. All I really want now is to just get away so that we could start a life on our own. Its bad enough that we have 101 things to worry about when we're there. Now, we couldnt even do anything to prepare for it. And then they have the cheek to say how come we didnt do anything.
See, now I'm back to being angry all over again. Sigh, why cant I just stop being difficult???
Its like a healing wound that gets cut up everytime it starts the healing process you know. You know the dried scab on a wound? Its like everytime somebody ask me about it, I dig away the scab and its an open wound again.
Honestly, I've tried very very hard to avoid talking about it for as long as I could. Why? Its so to give time for the would to perhaps heal a little bit more so that the next time around someone ask me about it, when I dig into the wound, the wound is not as deep and it wont hurt so much anymore.
I dont know why. One minute I'm absolutely convinced that I am over it, the next moment when the topic is bought up, I could feel the anger brewing inside me again.
I know Des feels absolutely horrible about this, but trust me babe, I'm really doing the very best that I can. I'm trying very hard to put this behind me. Somehow or rather, it still refuses to leave me. It must be something deeper than this...
This issue has disturb me so much until I couldnt properly sleep. Heck, I was so caught up in it that I suddenly only realized that today is the last day that I will be a legally single. It is so bad until I didnt even realized this and I guess the pressure spilled over to the registration issues.
I.Hate.This.
Can you believe that I cannot even enjoy the fact that I'm getting married soon.
I guess nobody really knows just how much the original date means to me. All I really want now is to just get away so that we could start a life on our own. Its bad enough that we have 101 things to worry about when we're there. Now, we couldnt even do anything to prepare for it. And then they have the cheek to say how come we didnt do anything.
See, now I'm back to being angry all over again. Sigh, why cant I just stop being difficult???
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
19/02/2008
Been very busy for the past week.
Wake up 6am to drive kids to their kindy for a week
Did my tax clearance (but still waiting for letter)
Bought a Dell
Bought a shockproof, waterproof, freezeproof camera
Bought a year supply of Dermalogica
Pack and clean my room (still have about 30% to do)
Done a preliminary packing for the trip
Created a new blog but no post yet (wait, the Dell, camera and Photoshop will come together soon).
I still have a long list of things to do. Don’t ask me “why I never do earlier” because life is like that.
And last minute arrangement screws up our accommodation plans in UK upon arrival so we will end up sleeping on the street or delaying the flight.
I’d rather sleep on the street.
Friday, February 01, 2008
01/02/2008
Just a quick update. Back home for a day today as I promised to go CNY shopping with mum. Managed to stick to my promise of not using credit card, but still managed to grab a couple of T-shirts. Oh well, its for the trip anyway.
Sleep has not been smooth, as I keep dreaming up weird dreams about the upcoming trip and waking up with an even weirder feeling. But as hard as I try, I cannot recall what I dreamt about seconds after I woke up.
Room uphill is getting emptier and emptier, but not as emptier as I would have preferred, I would say that we've managed to clear 70% of our stuff, with 30% still lying around the room. Aiks!
Thoughts has been running through my head about creating a new blog to track the trip and also would be good to "distribute" out to family members and friends. But I'll need to clearly draw the line on what will be updated in the new blog and what will be written in 512, cause I fear the it will be neglected. Also, I fear that I would have jinx it. We'll see...
Still have about 4-5 days of work before leaving the hill for good. Last minute issues begins to crop up, driving me crazy with the unnecessary stress.
February is officially here. And hence begins a very hectic and life changing month...
Sleep has not been smooth, as I keep dreaming up weird dreams about the upcoming trip and waking up with an even weirder feeling. But as hard as I try, I cannot recall what I dreamt about seconds after I woke up.
Room uphill is getting emptier and emptier, but not as emptier as I would have preferred, I would say that we've managed to clear 70% of our stuff, with 30% still lying around the room. Aiks!
Thoughts has been running through my head about creating a new blog to track the trip and also would be good to "distribute" out to family members and friends. But I'll need to clearly draw the line on what will be updated in the new blog and what will be written in 512, cause I fear the it will be neglected. Also, I fear that I would have jinx it. We'll see...
Still have about 4-5 days of work before leaving the hill for good. Last minute issues begins to crop up, driving me crazy with the unnecessary stress.
February is officially here. And hence begins a very hectic and life changing month...
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
11/01/2008
Eleven days into 2008, I admit that I still cannot be 100% sure that we've made the right decision.
Past four days in KL has been probably the most "productive" offdays ever.
We've submitted the application and has fixed a date to ROM on the 26th Feb.
We've managed to pull and survive the first official dinner with both our family.
I've started to announce the news of the ROM and the trip to friends.
Went to the British High Comm and but only made it to the compound, not the building.
Changed the phone batteries.
I still have to buy my camera batteries, settled my insurance bills, suspend phoneline, stock up on toiletries, and of course, how can I forget, move back down kl.
I'm still struggling back and forth on our decision, one minute feeling all good that we've made the right choice, the other minute fearing we've gone out of our mind.
Oh well, the decision has been made, and it is just typical me to entertain doubts.
I just have to keep reminding myself of these key words - "BSC", "Prostitute", "26th Feb", "London".
Yup, I feel a lot better now...
P/S: Selamat Hari Jadi, 25 sen!
Past four days in KL has been probably the most "productive" offdays ever.
We've submitted the application and has fixed a date to ROM on the 26th Feb.
We've managed to pull and survive the first official dinner with both our family.
I've started to announce the news of the ROM and the trip to friends.
Went to the British High Comm and but only made it to the compound, not the building.
Changed the phone batteries.
I still have to buy my camera batteries, settled my insurance bills, suspend phoneline, stock up on toiletries, and of course, how can I forget, move back down kl.
I'm still struggling back and forth on our decision, one minute feeling all good that we've made the right choice, the other minute fearing we've gone out of our mind.
Oh well, the decision has been made, and it is just typical me to entertain doubts.
I just have to keep reminding myself of these key words - "BSC", "Prostitute", "26th Feb", "London".
Yup, I feel a lot better now...
P/S: Selamat Hari Jadi, 25 sen!
Friday, January 04, 2008
04/01/2008
“Its just bad timing that you’re leaving. We wanted to transfer you up here…”
On the contrary, the timing couldn’t have been better! Phew!
On the contrary, the timing couldn’t have been better! Phew!
Thursday, January 03, 2008
02/01/2008
Yep,
1) We have handed in our resignation
2) We are leaving the hill right before CNY
3) We have to prepare to move back down KL
4) We are spending CNY in KL (and the whole month of Feb)
5) We are flying off on the 2nd March
6) I’m now engaged :-)
7) We are planning to register in Feb
8) We are only going to do the whole ceremony thing after the trip
9) We have a long list of things to prepare
10) 2008 is here!
1) We have handed in our resignation
2) We are leaving the hill right before CNY
3) We have to prepare to move back down KL
4) We are spending CNY in KL (and the whole month of Feb)
5) We are flying off on the 2nd March
6) I’m now engaged :-)
7) We are planning to register in Feb
8) We are only going to do the whole ceremony thing after the trip
9) We have a long list of things to prepare
10) 2008 is here!
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